To Save A Life

I just got done watching the movie "To Save A Life" and it is really good. If you don't know what the movie is about it tells the story of one teenager and his struggle his the suicide of his childhood friend. That's all I'm gonna say about the movie. The one thing that hit me the most is something that was never in the movie itself. It was my story, my testimony. My pastors tell me to write out my testimony so I can get a better understanding of my story to share it with others like I want to do.

Basically this is MY STORY.

During my senior homecoming my friends were enjoying a good dance and becoming homecoming king and queen. You know the typical high school things. Well I had decided to end my life. Me and my sister were arguing because she wanted to go with me to pick up mom from work so she could go to meijer to get a few things. That time has always been quiet time with myself and God, and I just didn't want to let her go with me (stupid right). Well I got angry and decided to to break stuff in a fit of rage. after wards the devil got into my head and was telling me the lies of how I'm not worth the air I'm breathing and how no one will ever love me and just all these lies. Lies that I believed. So I took the rest of my perscription muscle relaxers, about 8-10 pills. Now for those of you out their that don't know what overdosing on muscle relaxers does to your body I'll tell you, they speed up your heart faster and faster and faster until your heart can't handle it and stops all together. After that I told my mom and she was told by a friend to just watch me and make sure I'm alright. About 10-20 minutes later my mom is told to take me to the hospital and that's when reality hit me. My mom started crying right there and I came to the realization that I made a mistake and that I could be forgivin by God. And that God already forgave me and was telling me to stop believing the lies satan was telling me.

I wrote all this to tell you that if your like me or like I was that there is hope and there is more to life than the little hard time in your life and that I call this a "little" hard time because it truly is little in the eyes of God who loves you no matter what you have done.